Tuesday, December 11, 2007

The Holidays!

Well it's been a while and I could be like those annoying people who you never hear from and they say, "oh I've been so busy." I always think that is crap. I am busy, I have a full time job, I go to school full time, I raise a three year old! The bottom line is, I am lazy. At least I am willing to admit it.

I just read my Mom's blog and she talked about my Aunt Sara, I miss her. She died 6 years ago from multiple sclerosis. My Aunt was one of those people who didn't say no, she helped everyone. She helped my Mom with Becca and I because she was working full time. She never forgot a birthday, in the 20 years that she was in my life, she sang happy birthday to me every year. I remember the first year I had my birthday without her, I missed it so much. I often think about what she would think of Lane, I know she would love her. I think she would laugh that Lane looks so much like me as a little girl. It's interesting the way life has worked out, God always takes care of me. Lane has her own "Aunt Sara," that is Amanda. I always think of the fact that Amanda helps me just the way my Aunt helped my Mom. Amanda reminds me of my Aunt, there is nothing that I can't ask her to help me with, whether it be with Lane or myself.

I am going to Denver to see my sister turn 30 in a week. That is such a trip! I swear that it is so hard to believe that we are adults. I remember being kids and all I wanted in life was to be Rebecca. It was funny, I did everything she did! Somewhere along the line I stopped copying her every move, I wish I hadn't life would have been a lot easier!

I am so grateful for 2007, I am also grateful it's over. I learned way to much this year and most of it was from making mistakes and trying to correct them. I am still single and I think I am learning to be ok with that. Lane is such an amazing little girl who never stops amazing me, she continues to make me smile every day. I am so lucky...